post grad life – E. A. Young Writes

New Year, New Life Update

It feels like months since I have last written a blog post, but really it’s only been one.

I’ve written three drafts of this blog post, each one not feeling right. That may be my inner critic talking, bashing me down. Truth be told, a lot has happened in only a few months, and it’s hard to figure out where to start.

The Sporadic Life Update

Well, here we are again. One year of this blog being official.

What has happened in the one year? I’ve already talked about my job closing down, grief, and seeing my favorite podcast live (still one of the top ten moments in the year). What else? It’s like when people ask you “how was school?” and you have to try REALLY hard about what school ACTUALLY has been like. Otherwise, everything goes out the ears.

Recent Thoughts on Anxiety

I’m not going to lie, starting this blog was a big step for me. It also has brought me a lot of anxiety.

I have suffered from anxiety for many years, long before I had a name to call the feeling of being on the verge of tears, the feeling of my head getting hot, the paranoia, the look of exasperation that loved ones gave me when I asked them to validate my fears or assure me for the fifth time that everything would be alright.

Of Love and Popcorn: Another Life Update

I didn’t think I would be publishing another Life Update so soon (granted, I wrote the last one in October, published it in November, then launched the blog last week). However, a major life event has happened that has upended my routine and left me in confusion and sadness.

What I’ve Been up to

I was recently on a Zoom call with the English department at my old university, where I talked about our senior thesis, or capstone. At one point, the students broke off into groups to discuss any potential ideas they had for their capstone, while I stayed on the call to help students with any questions they had. A few of my professors saw me and asked what I had been up to.